Complicated Feeling

Thats no reason I m enter to blogging again~~
I tot i will not ever log in again..
Everything happen juz forget it...
But...
I m fail to do so..
Few month back I close with 1 guy..
Without any reason we b so close..
Until....everybody tot that we r couple..
1st I tot it is quite fun to having this relationship..
Everybody assume themself...
No one knows the true answer..
Even some of my friend advise me..
bcreful...
I m still ignore it..
n now...
I m not sure did i fall in love with him or not!!
but sometimes I will miss him sddly..
Every second I will look at my hp.. Did he text me??
I m juz will think of him..
But.. I m keep on tell myself..
He wont have d chance to know n reject me!!
I guess..
Now is the time to stop all this..
YEa!! It will be stop when I leaving Malaysia to china~
I wont think anymre the thing that never happen.!!
I know I m ugly!!
I know I m fat!!
I know I m not chinese!!
I know he is juz enjoying d complicated life oni!!
Its all temporary~~
I must CLEAR with all that!!!
Sometimes be a friend is better than a couple..
I must know my LIMIT~~
Hope I can control it better..
If I can I will never scared about love anymre~~
Juz take this as experiment..
Yes!! Juz let it be naturally