Bear Bear

I back here again...
I guess...
I m getting worst..
Last time I wont miss him miss until like that...
But..
I found that he is not suite for me..
I m a girl that wont express what I really wants..
AND ...
He is also a guy like that..
But I m very care of his feeling..
Others girls close to him..
I started to jealous!!!
What happen to me???
how many times I remind myself!!!
Cautions when it comes to love!!!
CAUTIoNS!!!!!
But?? I fail to do so!!
I wont let him know that I fall in love with him...
I wont~!!!!!
All I can say is juz let it to be like this~~
I create a new name for him~~
"soh hem bear"
I duno our friendship will last how long??
I duno what feeling of him towards me??
I duno what is d purpose he wants me like him??
But???? It will not end up as enermy~~
Juz keep on remind myself..
Cations When it comes to love...
Caution~~
Really hopes...
After the china trip..
I m able to handle this matter well~
He is resigning.. I m leaving...
YES!! Its a happy ending..

Complicated Feeling

Thats no reason I m enter to blogging again~~
I tot i will not ever log in again..
Everything happen juz forget it...
But...
I m fail to do so..
Few month back I close with 1 guy..
Without any reason we b so close..
Until....everybody tot that we r couple..
1st I tot it is quite fun to having this relationship..
Everybody assume themself...
No one knows the true answer..
Even some of my friend advise me..
bcreful...
I m still ignore it..
n now...
I m not sure did i fall in love with him or not!!
but sometimes I will miss him sddly..
Every second I will look at my hp.. Did he text me??
I m juz will think of him..
But.. I m keep on tell myself..
He wont have d chance to know n reject me!!
I guess..
Now is the time to stop all this..
YEa!! It will be stop when I leaving Malaysia to china~
I wont think anymre the thing that never happen.!!
I know I m ugly!!
I know I m fat!!
I know I m not chinese!!
I know he is juz enjoying d complicated life oni!!
Its all temporary~~
I must CLEAR with all that!!!
Sometimes be a friend is better than a couple..
I must know my LIMIT~~
Hope I can control it better..
If I can I will never scared about love anymre~~
Juz take this as experiment..
Yes!! Juz let it be naturally