Bear Bear

I back here again...
I guess...
I m getting worst..
Last time I wont miss him miss until like that...
But..
I found that he is not suite for me..
I m a girl that wont express what I really wants..
AND ...
He is also a guy like that..
But I m very care of his feeling..
Others girls close to him..
I started to jealous!!!
What happen to me???
how many times I remind myself!!!
Cautions when it comes to love!!!
CAUTIoNS!!!!!
But?? I fail to do so!!
I wont let him know that I fall in love with him...
I wont~!!!!!
All I can say is juz let it to be like this~~
I create a new name for him~~
"soh hem bear"
I duno our friendship will last how long??
I duno what feeling of him towards me??
I duno what is d purpose he wants me like him??
But???? It will not end up as enermy~~
Juz keep on remind myself..
Cations When it comes to love...
Caution~~
Really hopes...
After the china trip..
I m able to handle this matter well~
He is resigning.. I m leaving...
YES!! Its a happy ending..

Complicated Feeling

Thats no reason I m enter to blogging again~~
I tot i will not ever log in again..
Everything happen juz forget it...
But...
I m fail to do so..
Few month back I close with 1 guy..
Without any reason we b so close..
Until....everybody tot that we r couple..
1st I tot it is quite fun to having this relationship..
Everybody assume themself...
No one knows the true answer..
Even some of my friend advise me..
bcreful...
I m still ignore it..
n now...
I m not sure did i fall in love with him or not!!
but sometimes I will miss him sddly..
Every second I will look at my hp.. Did he text me??
I m juz will think of him..
But.. I m keep on tell myself..
He wont have d chance to know n reject me!!
I guess..
Now is the time to stop all this..
YEa!! It will be stop when I leaving Malaysia to china~
I wont think anymre the thing that never happen.!!
I know I m ugly!!
I know I m fat!!
I know I m not chinese!!
I know he is juz enjoying d complicated life oni!!
Its all temporary~~
I must CLEAR with all that!!!
Sometimes be a friend is better than a couple..
I must know my LIMIT~~
Hope I can control it better..
If I can I will never scared about love anymre~~
Juz take this as experiment..
Yes!! Juz let it be naturally

I'm Sorry~~

What I can say is just I'm sorry..
I had already try my best..
I had already gave the chance & opportunity..
But at last what is d different??
I m not suitable to in love again!!
Pls!! Let me go..
No matter what u did..
No matter how much effort u put in it../
No feel means no feel!!!
It can;t be juz 1 side love... I m sorry..
I dosent mean to hurt him..
I know my words is little bit hurts
I juz hope he understand..
We r not suitable...
Why dont he save the time for a suitable person??
I feel annoying!!!
I guess this way is d best way
BLOCK him!!
STop any relationship with him..
Sometimes I want to friend with you,but you??
What do u think???
i m juz can say...
I m sorry.. I cant stand d way u r..
Thanks for loving me..
Thanks that treat me good in this while..
Thanks that when I unhappy u let me vent my anger...
but....
all this is until friendship level...
It wont be more than that!!
I m sorry Mr.M
I wish you all d best..
U meet d wrong person this time...

Yeah!! Month Of JuLY

Finally, I m back here again..
Actually I left for a month bcoz this few month I m very busy with my working life~
Since I have 2 months holiday Y don't I use it to earn more more money for my degree school fees~
Time passed so fast.. degree going to start soon.. YEAH!!! Happy & Sad~~ Sad bcoz my stressful life coming soon~ Happy bcoz finally GAO DIM my diploma~~
I duno that I should thank HIM or not??
Bcoz of HIM no matter how hard, I will try my nest finish my diploma~
Bcoz of HIM I am much more independent than last time~
Bcoz of HIM I am who I am now~
Although I m not very successful~ But I m better than HIM right?? I finish my study faster than HIM~
Bcoz what memories HE gave me caused me that who I m now!!! Yeah!! I admit, once I know I m smarter than him, I feel great!!! I feel HAPPY~~
Bcoz He took away my beauty~
Bcoz He took away my true heart~
Bcoz He took away Honesty to someone~
Bcoz He took away my TRUST to someone~
Once something happen,no turning back.. no turning back~ Once the crack is there, it would be there forever~~ Of course it cannot blame him!!! He like PUPPY LOVE~ n back to that word,'I M STUPID'. Bcoz of 'I M STUPID' thats y I m training myself to be better!! I want to be better than him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No matter how I hate him,But the LOVE is still exist there~!!! It is not fair at all!!! WHY my LOVE to him is still exist but he r not at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY I still remember him??? SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STOP!!
Dun talk about him.. I m here actually would like to express my feeling!!! I got average pointer 3.29 for my diploma!! YEAH!!!
Graduation not sure will attend or not~~ But definitely,I will miss my diploma gang~~ bcoz some of them not continuing degree~~ SADZZ
Anywhere in d month of July, I can hit my sales target & get more more salary~~ AND also in this month full of FUN & JOYFUL memories~~ Better something happen caused to me forget him!!! HAhah:DD Yeah,I m crazy!!! LOL

hmmmmmmmmmm... i Guess its time to bed~~~ 2mrw working 8am.. ARghhhhh!!! Money money money~~~~ ComeComeCOme!!!! oklar..off to bed le.. back next time!! Gud nite blogiest^^

Yeah !! Yeah !! Yeah !!!

Finally~ I finish My diploma~
I finish my DIPLOMA~!!!!!
WoHooooo~~~
All this while crying for diploma!!!
Specially need to thanks all my lecturer...
Sem 1-7
1)Mr.kantaruben
2)Mr.Tony Leong
3)Ms.Loong
4)Mr.vijaya
5)Mr.Yeoh
6)Mr.Raymond
7)Ms.Kemalatha
8)Ms.Yap
9)Ms.Lee
10)Ms Zelle Book
11)Ms.sheela
12)Ms.Azzany
13)Ms.Monohari
14)Mr.Bernard
15)Mr.Paul Yem
16)Ms.Malar
17)Ms.Esvary
etc etc..

I m sorry for the lecturer who left out!! bcoz too much lecturer le!! Really appreciate for d education & guidance during this 2 years!!! And also thousand of THANKS to my lovely friends Liyen,MiinWah, WanYing, ChuiMan,XiaoDAN n last the most special friend MaxiChong!!! Without them I m sure I cant complete my diploma!!! Yes!! I m so Thanksful & happy!!! I m Graduate.!!! I m Graduate!!!! yuhooooo

His Name

Juz now once I open my facebook~
I saw this~~~
'He" came to my mind again~
Y always something related with him comes to me??
I dont want to think about him~
I don't want to remember him~~
PLS~~!!!
Go away!!!
exam coming soon..
After this exam, I m GRADUATE~!!!
Hoping for this day LONG LONG time ago..
But noe d stress, no one can imagine!!!
Taxation~!!
Fa5~!!!!
Audit~!!!
fa3~!!!
IMA~!!!
This few subject...
looks easy~ everyone is saying..
U are so good, Finally graduate ady~!!!
But??? The STRESS having now??? Who can undertsand!!!
Accounting.. WHY u are so HARD???
OMG!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!
Really afraid that I will fail..
When I m stress.. I feel like finding him..
But?? I guess he is preparing his exam as well~
I need to be more independent!!! YEA~
Chris!!! Good Luck in yr Exam ya^^
so??? Is time to continue my study now!!
LACK OF TIME!!!
juz wanna express my feeling here xp
come back next time..
bye~

~又是个爱情问题~

今天特别的down~~
突然好想好想他。。
在一年前的blog不见了。。
所以我也不想在多说以前的事！！
就说现在的心情吧~~
分手一年多了~ 我这个失败的人~真的失败。。
我到现在还放不下他~
虽然我有人追。。但~我一个也爱不上。。
走了一个又一个~我想我注定是老姑婆了！！
为什么‘你’对我会有那么大的影响力？？
这是不是我的报应？？是不是我以前都玩男人。。
现在要承担这个报应了。。
我不小心对‘他’ 动了真心~
可是在一年前，我被他抛弃了。。
发现原来我对真心的他，他对我不是真心的~
我只是他的工具..让他尝试了拍拖的滋味的工具~
这就是我报应！！玩男人的后果~ 当动了真心，就是死的时候~ christopher,我是真的很喜欢你。。 喜欢到除了你，我真的接受不了其他人。。你现在应该在笑吧？？笑有一个傻嘿将对你将疯~ 你就笑吧~ 我不会再提要和你重逢的事了~ 毕竟在爱情里一定要双方愿意的~ 就做朋友吧~ 这也是你希望的吧？？？ 每当跟你聊天时，我都会掉泪~ 还好你看不见~ 我想说的是~ 如果有一天。。 有一天我死了。。 你可以来拜祭我吗？？亲一下我的额头这样就够了。。 对！！ 我很笨。。 我知道~ 可是这不是说控制就控制的了的~ 如果我有得选，我也想忘记你~做会我的play girl啊~ 在此想对你说：对不起以前我的小姐脾气~ 对不起不会好好的去爱你~ 其实我口不对心的~ 很多事情我都会去坚强~ 可是内心却很想被你看穿~ 所以个性有时出了问题~ 对不起我说过伤你的话~ 还是要在此谢谢你~ 谢谢你为我做的一切~ 谢谢你留下我和你的回忆~ 谢谢你的容忍~ 谢谢你有尝试过去爱我~ 一切。。都结束了。。 不会再回头了。。 我也不可能再是你爱的人了。。 就让我~ 单恋你一辈子吧^^ 你要在生活里好好加油吧^^ 我的报应我会自己勇敢面对~ 我其实真的很后悔跟你分手~ 真的~

HeLLo NeW BloG^^

This was my new blog in the year of 2012~
I m so dissapointed to have new blog~
My old blog, I guees it will hacked by someone~ I can't open it.. I can't view my previous blog~
OMG~!!!
Its all about my life story..
How cant it juz disappear like that??
The blog since year 2009 - 2011 3 years story??? Say bye bye to them...
feel so dissappointed.. I love to read back my blog after few year~
Oh god!!!
Juz LOST like this~
NVM!! juz create a new one..
start with my story again!!
Hope this wont be hacked by someone.. PLS~!! Dun hacked my acc la!!
I will try my best to always update it..
so sad.. I miss my prevous blog.. wuwu~~~
LOST ADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!